dealing with being handicapped all of a sudden! physicaly
I found myself in the hospital and I remember thinking, well I should be out here soon, as I didn’t like hospitals. N OT… well, things got worse and I could not move. This was very frightening to me, since the worst injury I had suffered to date was a broken leg. Yes going back on writing this is very hard. I had to recall events that were very hard for me to go through.
The hospital checked me in and took me up to a room. My whole right side was frozen as I could not move anything. They had me on my back, and I couldn’t even rest. I am a side sleep person and that was most uncomfortable. My family came to see me and all felt so strange. I just wanted to be out of there and was so angry at myself for having this damned stroke.
My oldest daughter came in and pushed me in a wheelchair around the facility. It was good to get out there. However, I felt useless. Now remember, I have been self employed for years and have taken care of myself all that time. Being confined to a wheelchair was awful. Just the thought of it made me ill.
I was in the hospital for three days and then they decided to move me into a convalescent home. Once again, I had no control over what was going on. The place was nice but full full of old people. I was told that I was going to get therapy there so I could work on getting better. Now, I was 67 years old, and only about 40 in my mind.
Once again, I had to get used to being in the new place with people I didn’t know. I was a very private guy and found it very difficult to allow myself to fit in . The physical therapy people were very kind and put up with my attitude. My stroke was truly awful… and I needed help getting in and out of bed, brushing my teeth, going to the bathroom, and just trying to get around in the wheelchair. I became determined that I was going to lick this problem.